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She is a person of humour and down to earth with what she wants in life. It was a perfect gift from God. Although similarities between our characters were minimal, there isn’t a feeling of uneasiness and being surreptitious. The dusty but yet interesting past reminded me of the times when we first broke the ice. It was many years back. We were young, naive and you could sense an air of innocence around. Wild imaginations were the fuel for our life back then. I could see the brown and stocky tables arranged in rows and columns with rather short chairs.

As the calendar flips its pages it was on a particular day that it stopped. We finally spoke to each other. It was the day on the calendar that the flower was blomming and boasting its bright and energetic colours. We shared our experiences, laughters and life as friends together. Thinking back, sometimes I smile and laugh. My life was defined in a way by this budding friendship. It wasn’t something transitory. It was a start of something interminable.

The years continued to roll on until we finally met again. It became awkward at first when I saw her again. It felt that it was a new beginning. Something new and fresh. She has matured with age and she seems more intend with life. She was strong in heart and the effects of those hardship she went through was still fresh. She was a venerable person. Though she looks soft on the outside, she was a  stalwart in nature. It was astonishing to know that she had gone through so many obstacles.

This post is very much dedicated to you and only you. Friendship is like a flower. Sometimes it blooms and sometimes it doesn’t. Imperfections made us stronger day by day. With this I would like to gratify the things that you brought to my life and defined me as a person I am today.

I want to go to where you are
I want to start running there soon
I can’t see anything in the inky darkness
Even if I’m scared I’ll be okay
The wisdom of this clear sky
Is here now all the time.
I didn’t cry when I saw you in the past
Because the sky was clear. 

Confusion tend to blind someone from the truth and prudent decision. Ambivalence was the perfect enemy of judicious. I couldn’t make up my mind. "There were times I felt energised and felt that it was a new beginning but there were times I felt it was the end." The feelings were running wild and I was helpless to contain the virus beneath my soul. So contagious that it’s presence was felt by the souls of others. Question marks??? were a common sight in my ever confused eyes. "Why? What?" My eyes were tearing. The world around me seems to come to a halt. The breeze disappeared and the sounds of waves hitting the shore were silent. "I became empty" 

The volcano inside me has erupted. The ashes covered the light and the lava burned the ones that I care for. It made great sense that my life was crushed but somehow I still live through it. I saw a great figure approaching. Surrounded by ashes, a bright light blinded me and I was out of the ashes. My confused eyes were able to regain its conciousness. I felt calm and I felt hold. "I could hear a distant sound of peace and tranquility, birds chirping and the clock ticking away gracefully."

 Is that The bright light we have always dreamt of. Will it be a new beginning or just an abrupt end.

Tidbits: Life is what shape us to be different from the rest.